WHAT IS FREEDOM?

What is freedom?
Is it mean to live without paying your bills?
Or is it mean to run away to wherever and whenever you want?
What is freedom?
Is it mean we can stay at the border without gunfire?
Or is it mean the ability to choose whatever the choices you have?
What is freedom?
Is it mean to breathe the air without a mask to cover your face?
Or is it mean to spend your time with family and friends all day?
What is freedom?
Is it mean to be dreaming without afraid of failing?
Or is it mean to be expressive with your identity?
What is freedom?
Is it the power to fight all of your dark thoughts?
Or is it mean to sleep peacefully in your deathbed?
What is freedom?
Is it mean you can raise your voice and ask every questions that pops up in you head?
Or is it mean you can be decisive and indecisive person at the same time?
What is freedom?
Is it mean an ability to escape from boredom in this pandemic situation?
Or is it mean to be free from your self?
I wish my freedom is something that similar with Dazai and Naoko have
I wish it will not take a longer much time

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